USED

Have you ever wondered what it really meant to be used? To have your talent benefit someone else? Most of us have a negative connotation about being used. We tend to immediately think about a time when someone took advantage of us and took something unfairly. There are a few definitions of the word 'use' which I found on the internet.

1. to take unfair advantage of; exploit: to use people to gain one's own ends.

Looking at the first definition, people have a tendency to use others for there own gain. An employer uses the employees to do the work for a meager salary, while the owner makes the real profit. In relationships, one person may use another for sex, money, or even status. Personally, I have had many friendships in which I was 'used' for having a car, or to borrow money. I have to say, sometimes people really suck.

Recently, I have been trying to get my business off the ground, "Official Media", and I have asked God to use me. I had been feeling USELESS in my church as I am no longer apart of the Youth Leadership. I had to realize that I cant do everything and I have to say no to somethings, but dont get my wrong, Im still a big support to the youth group. Boy, did God answer in a hurry. My radio podcast "Official B.O.S.S. Radio" still does not have a big audience, but some of the feedback that I have received is amazing. I have had artist come up to me and say how much they really appreciate what Im trying to do for the movement of Christian hip hop. Wow, I never expected that. Especially since I havent even reached 100 downloads.

I had a show with my friend Campain a few weeks ago, in which I got the chance to host the event. I was real nervous as the line up was with some of NY's finest artist and I was basically unknown. Im not the most comfortable person in front of a crowd, but rapping is easy because I already know the words. Hosting is different and I have to feed off the crowd and acts of the night. I prayed all day that I would do well, I looked up christian jokes to say, I even asked a friend if I could use something that he said while hosting an event. Once again, God answers prayers. I have to say that this was one of my best performances as a host of an event. I performed my songs, the other artists rocked there shows and in the end, Over 20 young people and a few adults gave there life to Christ. WOW. I had never been apart of something that saved so many lives before.

Last night, I got to perform at Heart of Worship Fellowship in Suffolk County Long Island. I was kinda nervous as I knew I would probably be the only BROWN spot in the building, and the only person performing hip hop. I was wrong on both counts. While there was actually one of each, one rapper and one brown spot, no it wasnt the same person. The Rapper was a guy who looked as though he got saved 2 weeks ago and decided to rap for God. The Brown spot was only brown in skin color, nothing else. - as in no swag at all. So the Rapper got up there with his new album and really started to minister. I was impressed, as he really wanted to save souls. He set up the tone for me to rap as he kinda broke the rap cherry of alot of the people there. Thanks for the Alley-Oop. When I stepped on stage the crowd looked more nervous than me. But by the end of my set, I had officially crossed over. They loved me, and most importantly there love for God was ever present. Pastor Mark and another man prayed with me prophicied over me. They said they see God doing amazing things with me, and that I had a heart after Gods own heart.

Here is another definition of used.

2. to avail oneself of; apply to one's own purposes: to use the facilities

I have officially been used. Used in a way to minister to others. Used in a way that trancends race, gender, and culture. Used in a way that can set others free from bondage. I am being used by God for my purpose. I have availed myself to to be used. I feel good about being used. Thank you Jesus for using me.